To be Continued?

Well, a bunch of horrible things happened, and I was dismissed from my program. Pretty sure it was discriminatory. I don't know, but there were a few posts about the fiasco taking up space. I didn't want that to be a prominent feature in my journey (however short it may be), so I've condensed it into one post.
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My teacher has stopped responding. They seem very displeased that I requested to do my ride-along before everything else. I just want to see if I can handle it before re-doing EVERYTHING. The way the school has treated me just hurts. I wish I never mentioned my illness, because then they wouldn't have had a bogus reason for dismissing me.

Right now, I'm signed up to re-take the course. School is starting, and my major is Emergency Management w/emergency services emphasis. I'm terrified, honestly. Even at the height of mental health, my therapist was concerned about the social aspect of the job. Now that I've technically been dismissed for that very reason, I'm discouraged too. I think a lot of returning to mortuary school, but this field is awesome! If I was normal, this would totally be my calling. But I'm just not, and I'm worried to death of wasting more time and money and being disappointed again.

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June 9th:

I'm back in black, baby!

My teacher got back to me and, after many discussions, they're allowing me to complete the course!!! There is much to be done. I need to schedule my own ride-along, complete 100 assessments, do a new skills pass-off sheet, attend 12 hours of remediation, test all national skills, and show that I can work with strangers.

The main reason for the dismissal was my "difficulty working with strangers". BfreakingS! I was very good at hiding my immense discomfort, so they didn't observe that. The two other shenanigan reasons? I didn't attend my ride-along (well, 1: I was dismissed before my ride along took place, 2: I asked if I could still do it, and didn't get a definitive answer on the phone, and NO answer via email, 3: They refused to issue another ride along sheet anyway!!). Also, I failed to attend all the required hours (which is interesting, given that I attended enough remediation hours to make up a missed day and then some)?

I'm grateful for the second chance, of course, just baffled that it was even necessary.

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May 20th:

They won't let me graduate. I decided I would do my best where I could, and caught up on the 20 chapters in time. I also went ahead and took the final. I not only passed, I'm sure my score was near- perfect!

I called, they won't issue another ride-along form. In fact, they are dismissing me for "multiple reasons". I'm interested in what those are, because I'm only aware of not having vitals in and skills passed off - things, it seems, I have some extra time to do.

Still, it's very sad. I liked this stuff. I was doing well. I can see how invaluable it is to the Medicolegal field. And, even if I wasn't exactly outgoing, I was friendly. We'll see what they say. Just seems like they don't want to help me (or don't even believe my bag "story") at this point. As if I wanted to waste $1,000 and lose the best job I'll ever get.